I highly dought anybody will ever reply to this cause nobody ever does, so really whats the point? Is this journal like supposed to be our way of venting? Or talking to a shrink?
I guess so, Well fuck it...the last two weeks was emotionaly and mentally the hardest week in my life. I felt as if I was going to fall apart...or slip away..at one point hoping I would...well not realy dying..just hoping for a moments peace. A little piece of heaven in my hand that I could hold and be mine for even just a second.
I feel like my mind is never going to quite bugging me....
You know when I think about it, I have had many moments in my life I wouldn't trade for the world....it's just remebering those moments when you really need them that is the hard part....because really when you're feeling like your falling and your mind is racing you can't think of anything that makes you happy.
This happens to me alot...I end up getting down about something and want so badly to feel better I end up staying stuck in that place, when really I'm screaming to get out of that mind set...god I hate it. I just have to remind myself it's alright to feel that way and just let go of those feelings...easier said than done.